the resolution...

Well, I have had an interesting diagnosis. When I saw the neurologist he said that what I had could not be a seizure. With both sides of my body "seizing" he said that it would have been impossible for me to remain conscious. So then he dropped his diagnosis which was rather surprising. Stress. Yeah, hard to believe, huh? He said that my episodes had been stress reactions. He said that people (like me evidently) who don't deal with stress internalize stress it can build until the body has to react. He said that the seizure like episodes are rather common as stress reactions go. He said that he has seen people who believed that they were blind or even paralyzed, when there was nothing wrong physically with them. Isn't it amazing how little we know of ourselves. People talk about self awareness, but how are we supposed to be aware of who we are when we can hide stress from ourselves without knowing it. There is one who knows me better than I could ever know myself. The Lord knew me and knew that I was not dealing with stress. Ultimately, I was not trusting in Him. Instead of letting things that bother me go and turning them over to him I held onto them until they literally paralyzed me for hours at a time. My mind was so overloaded with stress it just sort of shut down. Pretty wild, huh? 1 Peter 5 gives the answer to how to deal with this problem. "6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, 7 casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you." He cares. That is why we can bring our troubles and cares to Him. He is the only one who can solve the problem. He is in control. He is sovereign. He knew that I needed to go through all this this summer to learn patience, trust in Him more, and to learn humility. God is good.