Romans 4:19-21

"He did not weaken in faith when he considered his own body, which was as good as dead (since he was about a hundred years old), or when he considered the barrenness of Sarah's womb. No distrust made him waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised." I read this at my favorite local coffee shop over a shot in the dark (coffee with espresso). This really hit me because it was so relevant to a conversation I had had the night before and just my season of life. I am withdrawn from school and not working at the moment due to my "health" issues returning. It's another time of enduring circumstances and learning to rest in and depend on the Lord. I believe that He has called me to counseling, and more specifically that He is calling me to Biblical counseling. But when I'm in my last semester and have to hold off again it causes me to doubt that what He has called me to will happen. I worry about finishing and when I'll be able to. I worry about getting into graduate school. I worry about if I'll be able physically or mentally to do graduate school. I worry that spiritually I won't be able to counsel others since I suck at counseling myself so often. I just doubt. Then I sit down and get in God's word and read how Abraham's faith was counted to him as righteousness. Abraham was old. He was near death according to Paul. God comes to him and promises an heir. Promises descendants numerous as the stars. Sarah hasn't born him a child yet. She was barren. Abraham believed God with all this staring him in the face. Wow. I am worried about my circumstances and my abilities. I need to fight for faith like Abraham. God has given him as an example to me. I have the same promises as Abraham through Christ. My feeble faith that God has provided anyway is counted to me as righteousness. I can't earn it. That's exactly where my faith should come from for the fulfillment of God's plans. He provides. He meets us where we are with grace and strength and love. He has saved us. He has met our greatest need in Christ. He will meet the lesser needs and see His purposes through to completion. Not because of me. He will see His will through because it brings Him glory. I can rest in that truth and press on in faith. Oh, what grace!