Lonely

So, it has been a very long time since I have posted anything. To try to catch up would take far too long. Instead, I will jump right in where I am at. My circumstances have changed. I have moved to a new locale with different environs. The environs have their own attractions and detractions as all locales do. One major detraction is the seeming lack of companionship. At least some of this is due to the fact that I have been uprooted from my comfortable, spoiled environment that had been built in several years. However, I started this new life with the assumption that it was a short term situation that had to be endured. Things have not changed and now I am wondering how short the term may be. I am a lonely person by nature to begin with. I can find myself lonely in a crowded room. But being truly lonely is another issue altogether. I have a need for being around people and absorbing from their company many things. Finding myself with few people to spend time with is a sad thing for me. My situation also is farther from certain comforts I had come to take for granted. I know that the Lord has lead me to where I am. I just have no idea why. There lies the problem. The whys and how longs can drive a person insane if not kept in some sort of check. It isn't just the distance between myself and people I had come to rely on. It is the absence of contact. Silence can be the loudest sound on earth. This is probably the most pathetic and self-pitying (and self-pityful) post ever. Sometimes you just have to get things written down and out of your system to truly deal with them. Lets hope this cheap therapy is successful.